Beastly and other things

Beastly (my CPAP machine) has turned out to be a faithful friend. He has done his job nicely and I am sleeping so well. I am sleeping so much better that now I know how poorly I was sleeping before and I thank God for His wisdom and provision in providing this most unusual of blessings. Beastly really deserves a much better name, after all I am happy with him and have tried to name him "Dream Machine" but alas the name has not stuck and I find myself saying Beastly so Beastly it is. He is called, more than likely, Beastly for the simple fact that I feel beastly when I wear him and he is very high maintainance between all the water adding and emptying, and all the daily baths and washing he demands.
Other things: I have also been struggling the last few days with just a nasty disposition. I feel like I must be the most horrible person to be around. I do believe I might be pre-menopausal. And, because of this, my periods have been wicked hormonally speaking. This, of course, does not excuse me being a little monster. It is so weird how I want to be nice but IT IS SO HARD. I find myself taking offense to any and all teasing or off the wall comments and I get so frustrated and lack my normal patience. I have had, in order to keep Brian and Jadon happy to be living with me, be in constant prayer these last few days. When I say constant prayer I do mean it. I am forever uttering these words or very similar, Lord, please forgive me for saying that, thinking that, or doing that. Please help me to be an example of your grace and love and not treat everyone around me with such distain and contempt. Help me to be a meek, quiet, loving woman who is chaste and prudent. Then, I must apologize, hug, and love on the person I just lambasted. I guess if you live far from me you can be thankful this week. I feel like a crazy lady!!